HOW? how how??

GOT MY EDUSAVE SCHOLARSHIP YTD!!!! hahaz. after dance ya. and imma ish going for the chinatown dance rehearsal today!!!! the 9th of january!!!! WEEEEEEE!!!! hahas sho happy/eggcited lah. cuz its felt like going to CHINGAY! and i miss chingay alot :'( sobs. sho fun. I WANNA GO AGAIN!!! haii. learning A math and Emath is HARD WORK!!! sometimes i get fed up with the homeworks when i dont know how to do it. like NOW!!! haish! starting ish ALWAYS hard. i know i'll get a hang of it soon. but now is really...really...omg hard lah! i need tuition!!! i need someone to teach me!!!! i need ALOT of encouragement!!! I NEED TO WORKHARD!!! AHHHH! its sho tough, sometimes i just felt like giving up and drop back to NA. i know i cant do that. so how? how how? i need ALOT of guidance. can someone just understand how i feel? i am not joking. its really starting to get stressful. i dont know what to do.....